cheryl julia.
10 January 2010 @ 11:43 pm
can now be found at: http://wunderbarcriedthebird.blogspot.com/
may or may not return to conmt.
you know how fickle i am.
cheers.
 
 

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cheryl julia.
when I met you,
i didn't know what to do,
but I noticed that I didn't really feel.
now you're away,
you write home everyday. i don't beg,
I don't borrow,
I steal.


i am horrible at polite conversation.
my face freezes up and my tongue cramps and i am reduced to a primate
whose primary form of communication consists of gestures and incomplete sentences.
awkward silence over small talk any day.

and i love how everyone is really annoyed that we now have to pay the adult fare for bus rides.

and in response to vibz's latest tumblr post:
wicked is mad awesome. everyone with a brain and a pair of eyes should read it.

But she woke up just then, and in the moonlight covered herself with a blanket. She smiled at him drowsily and called him 'Yero, my hero,' and that melted his heart.

oh fiyero! a diamond-skinned prince swathed in dreams, fantasies and the tantalizing notion of freedom.
just like nick from the handmaid's tale.
they kick rpatz's ass. no fight.
real men don't sparkle and run.

and i need to find a way to fall asleep at night.
 
 
 
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cheryl julia.
01 January 2010 @ 04:04 pm
take every moment,
you know that you own them.
it is all you can do,
use what has been given to you.


new year resolutions:
a. live (sincerely)
b. laugh (sincerely)
c. love (sincerely)

in between the lines there's a lot of obscurity,
i'm not inclined to resign to maturity,
if it's all right, then you're all wrong,
but why bounce around to the same down song?
you'd rather run when you can't crawl.


i ushered in the new year with choya, macadamia nuts covered in dark chocolate and a dvd.
and a sherlock holmes short story
and half a season of psych.

i know, you know, that I'm not telling the truth.
i know, you know, they just don't have any proof.
embrace the deception, learn how to bend,
your worst inhibitions tend to psych you out in the end.


cheers,
to a brand new year and for many of us,
a brand new start.
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cheryl julia.
30 December 2009 @ 03:27 pm
you've got to get yourself together.
you've got stuck in a moment and now you can't get out of it.
don't say that later will be better now.
you're stuck in a moment and you can't get out of it.


at the moment, i am nine minutes away from getting my grubby hands on two complete seasons of psych,
a week away from finishing the complete adventures of sherlock holmes,
and an hour away from finishing mr brain, which is mad awesome for the following reasons:
a. kimura takuya
b. awesome brain science tidbits
c. riveting plot
d. mizushima hiro
e. kimura takuya

christmas week was nicely spent.
family, food and chocolate.
and of course, presents.

saturday lunch at ma maison@bugis was nice too.
except for that creepy (japanese?) waiter and his tra-la-la voice.
the restaurant had a nice country-like decor to it,
with pots and pans hanging from the walls,
pretty patterned tablecloths,
and a nice musky smell to it.
and friendly (sometimes, overtly) staff.
not a bad place to hang out.

oh, and dvd nights with josh have been mad awesome too.
last week, we got pulse, infection, kungfu panda, the brothers bloom and something else.
the first two were kind of crap.
kungfu panda was hilarious and feel-good.
the brothers bloom was actually pretty good
and would have been better if the ending hadn't been so anti-climatic.

this week, we got handsome suit, dragon tiger gate, 20th century boys, written by and one more chance.
dragon tiger gate was.
lame.
but i had a weakness of hongkong action flicks, nicholas tse, donnie yen and shawn yue.
so it was okay, i suppose.
handsome suit was a predictable japanese film but feel-good all the same.

i have to get out of the house soon
before i become so accustomed to sitting in front of a screen and just breathing.

i never thought you were a fool,
but darling, look at you.


meanwhile, i can (sometimes) be found at: http://cheryljulialee.tumblr.com/
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cheryl julia.
23 December 2009 @ 12:51 pm
 
 
i talk myself in.
i talk myself out.
i get all worked up,
then i let myself down.

charlene is back.
i don't think I have ever seen anyone so happy to return from abroad.
but she bought me stuff and tons of 'exotic' pocky. :]

schedule looks something like:
korean classes with debbie and xinci.
piano with ting.
nature hikes with josh and j.
christmas with family.
nights with books.
days learning to teach.

and my little twisted sims 3 family.

and one day, i think, and hope,
that the whole relationship jazz stops
scaring the shit out of me.
maybe.

you're waiting for someone
to put you together
you're waiting for someone to push you away
there's always another wound to discover
there's always something more you wish he'd say


but i am horrified by the possibility of turning into you.

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i didn't choose her. )
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cheryl julia.
Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place to never come back

today was some kind of awesome. went over to bee's house to watch dvds.
we rented dead silence, the hot chick and forgetting sarah marshall.
when we started watching dead silence, bee and i were so pathetic.
firstly, we freaked out watching the scene that leads to the MENU.
then, we tried playing it on windows media player and
we screamed when we heard some kind of demonic laughter.
and it turned out to be the prelude to some r kelly gansta rap song.
MWAHAHAHAHAHHA.

dinner was.
hobo-like.
with bala and bee.
i swear, they are the weirdest people to eat with.
we had popeye's chicken on the floor of the viewing mall.
and there was so much chicken. it was everywhere.
in the end, only bala finished his two pieces.
although bee and i had a lot of fries and 'sea chicken'.
and it was nice sitting there, talking and laughing.
cheers to two of the best things to come out from my years at tj.
xoxo

AND RIMIKO CHUAH,
THANKS FOR THE CHRISTMAS CARD! IT'S AWESOME! :]]] <3333333
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cheryl julia.
14 December 2009 @ 07:28 pm
MWAHHAA.
i just bought 커피프린스 1호점 yesterday, but i am almost done with it.
i forgot how much i love korean dramas. charlene thinks 공유 looks like a pervert, and he kind of does. HAHAH.
and i am in love with 김재욱's cool and aloof 순기
and 이선균's uncle-y 한성. :]]]
(i hope i wrote that right.)
i apologise for the obnoxious korean characters but seeing as i am going to pick it up again,
i might as well get as much practice as possible.
 i hate typing korean characters though. it's a chore.
went to the gym today, trying desperately to lose weight.
but my ipod died half way through howl's 앵무새.
oh, and i curled my hair.
till friday's tv show marathon with bee then.
 
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cheryl julia.
10 December 2009 @ 11:12 pm


i hate how everyone's leaving.
i guess i should have seen this coming
but i didn't want to.
i am sorry that i am not going to see you guys off.
even if i could, i wouldn't.
don't think of it as i don't care enough.
think of it as i love you too much to say goodbye.
i know it's horribly immature of me,
it's like living in denial.
but i don't want you to see me cry,
which i will,
cause i am a complete wreck when i do.
and i look really gross.
dang. school never teaches you the practical stuff.
like how to say goodbye.

on a brighter note, cycling with kim, rimiko, zy and xw was awesome today.
<3
pictures will be up whenever rimiko decides to put it up.
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cheryl julia.
07 December 2009 @ 11:09 am
Are you mine? Are you mine?
Cause I stay here all the time
Watching tele, drinking wine.
Who'd of known? Who'd of known?
When you'd flash up on my phone,
I'd no longer feel alone.


with the a levels done and safely tugged away (at least until march next year),
i have been spending the days watching csi:ny
and being mad that castle and bbt's latest episodes are not out yet.
glee's latest was pretty much a disappointment.
it felt like a haphazard filler. but i am ecstatic that terri's finally going to get her own.

prom's tomorrow night. and it's turning out to be a mighty troublesome affair.
firstly, i can't wear contact lenses so it take me half an hour to stick it in.
does not help that i blink like a donkey on cocaine when something comes remotely close to my eyes.
and then, there's that whole hair and makeup thing that i tried, and failed, to avoid.
and shoes! sheesh. you can never find a pair when you need them.

and remember what i wrote about my body switching off at six? scratch that.
that is if i had my dose of arcade. on friday, i was drained by three.
yep, my mum has no need to worry about me morphing into a party girl.
i wouldn't be awake long enough.

charlene's heading off to china. i don't know whether to fear for her, or for the chinese there.

and as far as university goes, i am leaning towards nanyang tech for now.
a major in english lit, and a minor in creative writing.
and a mix of other language course. i can't wait to get my feet back into korean.

I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.
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cheryl julia.

my heart is like an open highway,
like frankie said, 'i did it my way.'
i just wanna live while i'm alive.
it's my life.

and life begins.
with zombieland. mwahahah.
so i caught zombieland with charlene tonight, after my last paper.
(bala dear, i think we were supposed to watch it together but i forgot. sorry!
BUT, i will still catch it with you if you want. I LOVE IT.)

and there's something strangely liberating about going out
decked in jeans, a beatles tee, and a nice faux leather jacket,
with my handphone, and nine bucks in my pocket.

and my mentor for the tjc internship is ms thangam, my beloved civics tutor! <3

and i packed all my stuff in the past hour, with the help of josh.
i have this thing about things being organized. it's like an ocd.
besides, it's a fresh beginning. no more of that science goo.

a really long dedication post for... )

so goodbye to the graduating batch of 09.
i may never see you guys again, but somehow, sometime,
you made an impact on my life and left a footprint.
for the missed opportunities, what could have been,
what might have been, the possibilities have all become memories.

since you never came to me,
you will stay a distant memory.
and slowly, i start to find,
i don't miss you at all.


and i really don't.

i'm at the starting line of the rest of my life,
as ready as i have ever been.
 
 
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cheryl julia.
29 November 2009 @ 02:20 pm

Oh, sweet Caroline,
Good times never seem so good.
I've been inclined to believe it never would.


i am insane. i swear, i watch the most tv shows during exam periods. it is not healthy.
anyway, i am delighted to say that i have caught up with the current season of glee.
and i am an idiot for waiting this long to watch it.
it is brilliant! everyone can sing, act and dance their pants off.
it's like disney channel with a dose of maturity and real, actual comic moments.
high school musical with better actors, music, dances, songs and bascially, an improved everything.
and i kind of like how everyone is so flawed.

i liked corey monteith's finn at first
(he has a mad awesome voice especially when he does danny zuko)
but he's a moron.
and there's mark salling's puck, who has a really, really awesome voice.
the kind that's not too pop so it sounds like zac efron on prozac.
it's got a really mature undertone and he could totally get me if he sang sweet caroline to me.
but he's a jerk.
and there's matthew morrison, who makes me want to take up spanish.
but he has a nutcase for a wife.

and if you need convincing, check out the boys of new directions
doing a mash-up of it's my life and confessions part II.
best damn thing ever.
and the scene's pretty cute.
and chris colfer's defying gravity is BRILLIANT.
and the acafella's i wanna sex you up.
and corey monteith's you're having my baby.
and mark salling's sweet caroline.

one more week, two more papers.

currently on my mad awesome tv shows list:
- castle
- the big bang theory
- glee
 
 
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cheryl julia.
25 November 2009 @ 09:20 pm

Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world.
She took the midnight train going anywhere.
Just a city boy, born and raised in South Detroit.
He took the midnight train going anywhere.


so i went out today with josh and i had a great time.
we drank *bucks coffee, burn a hole in our pockets at the arcade,
went on a zombie killing spree, then on a criminal killing spree,
threw balls at flashers and gangsters, spotted differences,
had my ass kicked by him at guitar freak, then kicked his ass at basketball.

recited lines from big bang theory, contemplated buying shirts from the dc comic store,
poked fun at the performance by the winx club (which was disastrous by the way),
ate at swensen's, talked about how we were really old people at heart,
and then headed on home.

my brother really gets me.
God totally knew what He was doing when he put us together.

i really am an eighty year old woman stuck in an eighteen year old body.
my body clocks out at 5, like life is a nine to five job.
i hate crowds and by extension, going out at night.
i like snuggling at home with a good book/tv show/movie/comic.
and i like comfortable silences.

but i am happy.
and today, was the best date ever.
and my brother kicks ass.
anyone who says otherwise is going to get a sucker punch in his face.
:]

I'll be alright without you.
There'll be someone else, I keep telling myself.
I'll be alright without you.
Love's an empty face,
Oh I've got to replace.
 
 
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cheryl julia.
After all, you're the one who turns me off.
You're the only one who can turn me back on.


okay. so exams aren't officially over.
but i am left with two papers, so yay.
and i am taking a break for a bit.
i think i almost overdosed on big bang theory.
it's mad awesome. everyone should watch it.

it was your hair or your lips.
the ocean breeze.
a handshake full
of fireflies and sparkling wine.
otherwise a textbook introduction.


and i am going to get out tomorrow.
before i permanently withdraw into the wonderful,
mystical and brilliant web
that the threads of my imagination weave.
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cheryl julia.

I'm leaving you for the last time, baby.
You think you're loving but you don't love me.


so i am halfway through my papers (yay!) but I have about five million more to go (aw.)
it's strange. but i am not as panicky about it as i thought i would be.
i don't think it's complacency. god knows i am not smart enough to be that.
i am just waiting for the days to go by until third december arrives.
and then. life.
meow.

p.s: i got the internship thing at my school. me, a future educator? god bless my students.
till then.

p.p.s: castle totally kicks ass.

p.p.p.s: i love james. :]]]
 
 
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cheryl julia.
it was the way she said it, with all the conviction in the world. 'i know you will be happy.'

---

i asked my mum what kind of future she saw lying ahead of me.
she said, with a tinge of sadness, 'i think we will see very little of you.
but it is because you are out there, travelling and living your dream.'
'will i be happy?' i asked.
'yes. undeniably, unabashedly. almost shamelessly,' she smiled.
'you think?'
and she said, 'no, i know.'

and i felt impossibly light and giddy.
i will be happy. 
:]

i refuse to be burdened by these expectations.
be buoyed by them.
not burdened.

meow.
that is my war cry.

it starts tomorrow.
and i will rock it.
with 'a's or 'b's or even 'c's.
(though i really hope not.)


and then, life begins.

meow.
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cheryl julia.
in slightly more than a week, i will be embarking on the horrific journey that is the a levels. but presenting, the light at the end of the tunnel:

- (hopefully) relief teaching at tjc with the girls
- kickboxing classes with xinci and isabelle
- korean classes with xinci and debbie (and yuxuan!)
- starting my sandman project
- working on the overdue teachers' day presents with rimiko and kim
- conquering sentosa with charlene and bee
- watching all the movies i missed
- trip to russia
- trip to europe
- trip to korea (hopefully)
- outings with the cousins
- outings with the girls
- outings with wing and wenxin
- AAAAANNNND BEING TOTALLY HAPPY AND FREE.

with this plan in mind, i actually can't wait for the a's to come and go. XDDDD

 
 
cheryl julia.
03 October 2009 @ 11:05 am
prelims are overrr!

hello, the lost symbol! i started it a while ago and i am on chapter 70, page 262. rock on, dan brown. as usual, the book is a real page turner, giving the reader alternating views of the characters. sometimes, he takes just a bit too long to describe everything, in my opinion and my head is just screaming, PLOT! but, awesome book so far. and it is extremely rich in history, which is why i love dan brown's books.

anyway, the day prelims ended (two days ago) was spent watching inglourious basterds and pigging out on sushi with ting. the movie is brilliant! well, lots of blood splattering, mostly done by the basterds but you are always rooting for them anyway. thumbs up to the hilarious brad pitt, the strangely endearing eli roth, the elegant melanie laurent and the chilling christoph waltz who had ting and i on the edge of our seats throughout. it is definitely not a movie for the weak hearted what with all the gore. but an awesome, awesome movie.

yesterday was spent hitting town with jh and ting. i visited ion orchard for the first time and can i just say that is reminds me of an obscenely large diamond ring, perched on the wrinkled finger of a snobby and repulsive old lady? anyway, there seems to be an invisible line that demarcates the rich man's world, and the world belonging to the rest of us mortals. the basement has a few awesome eateries though. yay for provenance! :]]] the night ended on a nice note with dinner at the oriole, at pan pacific. the bangers and mash and chocolate fudge cake was pretty awesome. and on a quieter night, i would gladly have sat there throughout.

two more days of absolute non-studying and it's back to the world of exams. reality bites.

 
 
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cheryl julia.
30 September 2009 @ 05:44 pm
i know the color scheme of the layout is more than a bit off but i needed a change from mj quick so i used one of my ancient blends.

technically, i shouldn't even be doing this since i have one more paper tomorrow. but my self-control has been amazing so far. haha. the last two three months since i last updated has been really disgusting. especially for someone who barely studies. and the next month leading up to the a levels exams are going to be even worse. eck.

for the moment, i am really looking forward to the next two days. i am catching a movie with ting tomorrow (most likely inglourious basterds) and hitting town with jh and ting on friday. :]]]] much love.

and thanks to bala and josh, i am back on my mystery phase. what with awesome episodes of psych and chapters of detective conan, i could really spend the rest of my life in front of my laptop. and i have dan brown's the lost symbol on my desk, yo! MWAHAHHA. hello, thursday! and how i met your mother's latest season! life is awesome.

and i want to catch funny people, accident, the time traveller's wife, (500) days of summer! but eck. the a levels loom.



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cheryl julia.
22 July 2009 @ 05:20 pm
HIATUS
due to the gross concept that is school and the a levels,
c-onmt.lj is going on a hiatus since i do not see me having much free time in the next few months.
to my lj friends, i will keep reading your journals but forgive me if i do not comment often.
to everyone else,
until next time.

xoxo,
me.
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